7.27.2005

You should really get this book

I am listening to a audio CD book called "He's just not that into you". I highly recommend it to all the ladies out there.

It frees you a liberates you to live life to the fullest and not to sweat the small stuff.

Anica

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another questionnaire for me to fill out from NWG.


WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR KITCHEN PLATES? Mixed colours
WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? He's just not that into you - Greg Behrent
WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?Don't have one; they are soo annoying
DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?None but I would like to own a dog.
FAVORITE MAGAZINES?Paste, Oxygen, Chatalaine
LEAST FAVORITE SMELL?Stinky Fishes
WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? What time is it?
FAVORITE COLOR? Purple, almost all shades.
LEAST FAVORITE COLOR? White
HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? Sometimes I don't answer the phone at all.
FUTURE CHILD'S NAME?Teagan, Lorelei, Seamus, Sumner
WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE? That you never lose your chance in making something of your self. and to make meaningful and great friendships and something more.
CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?Chocolate Swirl
DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST?Yup.
DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? NO
STORMS - Very cool
WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? 2000 Gold Toyota Corolla
IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE WHO WOULD THAT BE? Jeff Buckley, Margaret Laurence, all my RP friends.
FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? Daquaris, martinis and long island iced tea.
WHAT'S YOUR SIGN? Capricorn
DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI?Nope too tough
IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB WHAT WOULD IT BE? Rock star, Artist, Fashion Designer
IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY COLOR HAIR, WHAT WOULD IT BE? any colour
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE?Yes.
FAVORITE MOVIES?My fair lady, Adventures in Babysitting, Lost in Translation.
DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?Yes.
WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED? Dresser Drawers
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 3
FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? Hockey, and getting into NFL football
WHAT IS YOUR SINGLE BIGGEST FEAR?Never getting out of debt. Waiting in line for the rest of my life.
FAVORITE CD? No can do.
KETCHUP OR MAYONNAISE? Mayo
HAMBURGERS OR HOT DOGS?Hamburger
FAVORITE SOFT DRINK? Real ginger beer.
THE BEST PLACE YOU HAVE EVER BEEN? Montreal, Gaspe, Boston, Quebec City.
WHAT SCREEN SAVER IS ON YOUR COMPUTER RIGHT NOW?None
BURGER KING or McDONALD'S? Neither I like Wendy's the best.

7.25.2005

I am feeling anxious over some news I got and I am feeling scared and not very confidence right now. BRRRR. I hate this feeling.
I got this from Blu
AAppealing
NNutty
IInfluential
CCreative
AAppreciative
DDreamy
RRelaxing
UUnnatural
NNutty
KKeen
EElitist
NNutty
LLight
IInspirational
LLight
AAmbivalent
CComplicated
WWild
IInsane
NNice
EEccentric
eyes (Michelle's Blog) and I think it suits me to a T=Teriffic (sp.)

THanks

and have a nice day.



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7.22.2005

alot of pondering

This past week has left me emotionally drained.

Confusion is everywhere and I don't think I can sort out alot of this stuff.

First of all Kelli is going to die very soon.

Second, I met a guy I really like online but am scared because of failure.

Third, Christianity

Fourth, Death in general.

and finally my unemployment.

Usually I candy coat stuff to help others swallow what I have to say. But not today.

Death seems to surround me everywhere and I don't know if it is permanent or not and is it catching?
All sorts of death to deal with: physical, emotional, mental, spiritual. How do we truly live if we can't see what real life is?

Life is so sad, sometimes. I wish I was more eloquent with my words but this is all I can com up with.

I won't cry about death cause that is what it wants. But sometimes I am so tired of fighting. Are there any alternatives to fighting.

We are mere human beings that are given our share of problems, triumphs, sorrow, pain, laughter, gifts.

Sometimes I wish I was more than what I am: better communicator, better friend, better daughter, sister, purpose taker.

Sometimes I made excuses for so many things in life that cause me to die (not physically).

I think fear and misunderstanding and maybe comfort and lack of change is what truly kills us in the end.

Anyways, I hope that everyone is well. So much to think about

7.20.2005

Got this from Allan's blog

a-age- 34.
b- band- The Who
c- crush- The guy from the Listerine Pocket Paks Commercial. I blush when I see him
d- dads name- Djuro
e- easiest person to talk to- my friend Jane
f- favorite ice cream- Moose tracks from Kawartha Dairies
g- gummy bears or worms?- Worms
h- hometown- Brampton Ontario
i- instruments- Clarinet and keyboard, vocals and drums.
j- junior high- Centennial Senior
k- kids- none.
l- longest car ride ever- Brampton to Boston Thru Quebec and Gaspe.
m- moms name- Danka
n- nicknames- Ophelia,
o- one wish- that I lose weight.
p- phobias- Mosquitos, they just love my blood.
q- quote from you- "Don't go there dude."
r- reason to smile- I am alive and there is still so much potential to life.
s- song u sang last- Cloudbusting - Kate Bush.
t- time you wake up usually- 10 am
u- unknown fact about me- I only had 3 boyfriends.
v- vegetables you hate- canned veggies
w- worst habit- Eating Junkfood and impulse buying
x- Xperience (Happiest) - tie: going to Sudbury for an interview and driving to Boston to see Jackson Browne.
y- years since u been to a religious/spiritual place- 3 wks ago.
z- zodiac sign- Capricorn not much into zodiacs.

I am in a writing mode today. Need to vent with a lovely poem.

Are you tired
of living 9-5?
because I am
trying to get out.

Not easy, very tough
I will be brave and bold
and I can't spell anymore
So excited I am.

I am not there yet
almost at the peak
of the Himelayas
but I am climbing.

To keep me strong
to stay in shape
for what lies ahead
need serious focus.

The toughest road
is usually before
a triumph I haven't
experienced before.

My flag is purple and orange
facing up to my demons
of yellow and blue.
killing them grey.

I am tired
but got to keep
on trying to
salvage my stakes.

anica

I don't know about this... I feel like its going too fast.

I met a guy online and I don't know what to make of it. I feel really scared but I feel good too. I don't know why. Had always bad relationships with the opposite sex and I don't know what to make of this one happening. I really like this guy and he seems really nice.

I keep say I alot because can't get inside to admit that I am attracted to him. Oh well.

See you sometime. I think i made sense there. or did i?

7.07.2005


Well I had to take it. I like silly but true stuff like this. But violet is not my favourite colour. Cheers. Had a wonderful day on Tuesday. I had an inteview in Sudbury. That was the highlight of my life esp. when I had moosetrax icecream. That was something to savour.

7.04.2005

Independence Day

I would like to wish all my American friends a blast on July the 4th. It is has a special meaning for me like no other day. For some reason this day brings me peace and I can't understand why. It brings me to thinking about potential and doing what is right. It is more than just a day, but a reminder to see the big picture.

Independence Day

My life as a marble slab
was there to remind me to
take chances on making mistakes
and to reclaim my shape and purpose.

And with fear I trembled
To overtake this shapeless mass
to sculpt a shape that I can handle and make.
To create a masterpiece that I must fight for.

Fear is the only enemy with belief and courage.
I will fight this because I lost to it before.
The challenge is lifelong but I know what to do.
Create a shape that will help me win my battles with it.

And from knowledge and techniques
Will help you choose and form
What your greatest desires are
Which are not carved in stone.

Truest meaning are hidden in marble.
Truest beauty is hidden in an ugly mass.
You fight with an army of chisels and buffers
To create your life's intents and beliefs.

july 4, 2005